so suddenly, life begins — but does it ever end?
i swear that i’ve been over this a million times with my friends
some say the afterlife is a paradise for me to win
_or just a prison to live in if i give in to sin
some say the deal is a wheel, and that we’ve always been
_and if we give in to illusion we’ll be back again
i’ve combed every tradition, back in history
_but one thing that i know is not a mystery:

how i refused to try and how it all went wrong
is something i don’t want to know when i go

if there’s a river on the border of the heaven i arrive in
_i’m gonna dive in, no hesitation
__i’m gonna give in to lethean oblivion
my memory is no eternity i wanna live in

i can’t wait to wade into those waters when i die
i won’t remember how i lost her when i wash up on the other side

i don’t want to go to heaven if heaven’s without her
_heaven would be hell without her
and if i am born again, will i relive this pain?
_just another life to make the same mistakes i made

it seems like a matter of faith that i should race to try to better my place
_stay chaste, don’t waste to climb the ladder of grace
but what’s the difference it makes if my soul still aches for the sake
_of a lost love that i cast aside?
__there ain’t nowhere i can hide if my past can trace me
to heaven or hell my memories chase me
i just pray God to erase me

i can’t wait to wade into those waters when i die
i won’t remember how i lost her when i wash up on the other side

i don’t want to go to heaven if heaven’s without her
_heaven would be hell without her
and i pray i won’t remember the way that i love her
_why can’t i just disappear when i die?

i can’t wait to wade into those waters when i die
i won’t remember how i lost her when i wash up on the other side

i don’t want to go to heaven if heaven’s without her
_heaven would be hell without her
and i pray i won’t remember the way that i love her
_why can’t i just disappear when i die?
and if i am born again, will i relive this pain?
_just another ____ life to make the same mistakes i made

erase me, erase me, erase me and set me free

if there’s a river on the border of the heaven i arrive in, i’m gonna dive in